find your happiness. and do it. now.

Today was a good day.

And it was a chemo day. I think that just proves that life is what you make it. All of it is so mental, it is believing that everything is going to be okay and not letting them not be okay.

 Today, I went to chemo with Heather and we had a blast (haha, not something one normally associates with chemotherapy...). So story time. A month ago, I saw a guy about my age getting treatment and with my limited medical knowledge deduced that he probably had something similar to me knowing the age prevalences, and the chemo he was receiving in the time frame he was receiving it. So naturally, I wanted to talk to him. And naturally I did, really awkwardly. Anyway, point of the story was that it made me think about when I still had 9 treatments left and how COMPLETELY OVERWHELMING that felt. And how lucky I am to be almost done- and that I can do anything that I put my mind to!

I was "pinteresting" today since I didn't have school, and found that CS Louis quote... "there are far, far better things ahead than any we leave behind." TRUTH. Sometimes it's hard for me to look past the past and the present into the future. The future I will have in ONLY ONE MONTH. I mean, I can totally handle that. Just like I can toatlly handle all of these dang doctors appointments and treatments coming up, because it is all temporary and in the end it will all be a memory (unless I repress all of it in some crazy PTSD kind of way...).

I do not think that I will repress it though because I have actually made some pretty good memories through this whole thing.... crazily.  All of the nurses are incredible, and my nurse today, Avis,  (one that has been there from the beginning) even joined in on all our gossip, it was hilarious. And Katrina, my usual plebotomist, knows everything about my life and remembers all the right question and things to say! And don't even get me started on Dr. Johnson. I basically pretend like he is my grandpa who just happens to be my oncologist. Plus, he thinks I am adorable and I love him for that. I couldn't imagine having anyone else manage my treatment... I mean I never thought that I would LOOK FORWARD to seeing and ONCOLOGIST, but I so do!

So after me and Heather had our amazing chitty chat at chemo we had a delish brunch at this City East bagel place in germantown. So good. And then we spent a couple of hours driving around looking at houses, which was so much fun. It was just a good day all around and made me so excited about moving and being done with this s**t, and starting fresh soon! 

So right now, I am deciding to be happy, at this very moment. And invite y'all to join me in doing the same. Love the life you are giving in order to really live every moment. Find happiness in unexpected places and laugh in moments that beg tears. It is your life, and we only get once chance. So I ask you: WHY WASTE IT?

 Liv

PS Sorry I want a lil crazy on pinterest. the end.
PPS Only two more chemos left!!! GOD IS GREAT!